Now, in the last blog I will describe Sam!:
On the photo you can see Sam, my boyfriend!
He has got medium long, a bit wavy and brown hair. The young man is thin- faced and has got wonderful brown eyes!
Sam is a slim person but also muscular and well- built! I think that is helpful if you want to be a good skater, like Sam is!
Here you see Sam sitting on a bench; he wears a black jacket, with a black shirt. Under the shirt you can see a watch. My boyfriend wears a dark jean, in the pants; near his knee is a big hole.
I guess that the picture incurred after a Slam! Maybe he wasn’t concentrated and didn’t keep the balence on the board, when he practised the rock ´n´ rolle, so he felt on the ground!
Donnerstag, 17. Dezember 2009
The End
The end of the propably most surprising and exciting part in my life
All in all I am happy how it happened;Sam and me live in different areas and we have new partners in our life. As good as far! I feel good when I think about the past, all the rows with Sam an the hard discussions with my parents, the time when I had to live with the secret that I was pregnant was the most difficult and confusng time for ever. The time has passed so fast and Roof is a good-looking, slim boy by now!He grow up quicker than Sam and me could imagine!
Thank you for your help, Sam! And thanks that you came back from Hastings!:D
All in all I am happy how it happened;Sam and me live in different areas and we have new partners in our life. As good as far! I feel good when I think about the past, all the rows with Sam an the hard discussions with my parents, the time when I had to live with the secret that I was pregnant was the most difficult and confusng time for ever. The time has passed so fast and Roof is a good-looking, slim boy by now!He grow up quicker than Sam and me could imagine!
Thank you for your help, Sam! And thanks that you came back from Hastings!:D
Chepter19
Chapter 19:
One day Sam and I decided to do something with Sam because it seemed that he was really happy when both parts of his parents could stay with him at the same time! We went in a park with him and played a bit in the sand with Roof… but we didn’t talk much. The mood was tensed; I won’t talk to Sam because he seemed repelled, as if he was scared of me. All in all we didn’t talk…and we didn’t have a row, which was the good point of silence!
Sam accompanied Roof and me; he ate with my parents for dinner, after the meal Roof’s father wanted to have a look at his son…we went upstairs… over the nice day -together as a normal family- I noticed that Sam is a great father and that I still have feelings for him! Suddenly it happened… in my brother’s bad!
We haven’t had sex since Roofs birth and none of us took a condom, so we had to steal it by my parents! It was a wonderful evening, we understood well and my feelings were stronger for him, like the first time! And…I thought about a new attempt of common future. I was so happy and hoped that this night was the end of rows! We talked about the past when Roof was a baby; it was a really hard time, there was no night we could sleep as long as we would like, and we had to look after him all the time (we still have to look after him every second, but now it is normal and we got used to look after him and do something else at the same moment!)…
Suddenly my mum opened the door to the room we had sex; she was totally surprised and angry when she realized that it were my ex and me, who were lying necked in Rich’s bad!
Of course I was shocked when my mum came in, mum asked us strong to come downstairs! We drunk a tee and discussed with my mum and also with my dad, he was not as surprised about Sam’s and mine sex- Relationship as mum, but he played the strong fatherhood to support his wife!
One day Sam and I decided to do something with Sam because it seemed that he was really happy when both parts of his parents could stay with him at the same time! We went in a park with him and played a bit in the sand with Roof… but we didn’t talk much. The mood was tensed; I won’t talk to Sam because he seemed repelled, as if he was scared of me. All in all we didn’t talk…and we didn’t have a row, which was the good point of silence!
Sam accompanied Roof and me; he ate with my parents for dinner, after the meal Roof’s father wanted to have a look at his son…we went upstairs… over the nice day -together as a normal family- I noticed that Sam is a great father and that I still have feelings for him! Suddenly it happened… in my brother’s bad!
We haven’t had sex since Roofs birth and none of us took a condom, so we had to steal it by my parents! It was a wonderful evening, we understood well and my feelings were stronger for him, like the first time! And…I thought about a new attempt of common future. I was so happy and hoped that this night was the end of rows! We talked about the past when Roof was a baby; it was a really hard time, there was no night we could sleep as long as we would like, and we had to look after him all the time (we still have to look after him every second, but now it is normal and we got used to look after him and do something else at the same moment!)…
Suddenly my mum opened the door to the room we had sex; she was totally surprised and angry when she realized that it were my ex and me, who were lying necked in Rich’s bad!
Of course I was shocked when my mum came in, mum asked us strong to come downstairs! We drunk a tee and discussed with my mum and also with my dad, he was not as surprised about Sam’s and mine sex- Relationship as mum, but he played the strong fatherhood to support his wife!
Chapter18
Chapter 18:
I was tired and exhausted; Roof still was sleeping and I wanted to relax in the bath…but suddenly I heard Sam at the door, he wanted to talk to me, I took of my dressing gown (I didn’t know why but it seemed urgent) he was a bit nervous and came inside. I was angry because of his inattention and than he allowed my to go back in the bath as if he wanted to see my necked! I was shocked and didn’t believe that he really said it!
But the worst point was when he told my, he does not want to see my body because he would have much better things to look at!
When I realized what that meant I went off, that was too much! I yelled at him… and when I was so mad at Sam I forbid him to stay in contact with Roof! I thought I would save Roof by not having contact to his dada anymore!
After a while we discussed and fight my mum intervene in the act and tried to calm us town, she made us both a cup of tea and than I noted that there was a bit misunderstanding between Sam and me; he doesn’t want to see my body he quickly wanted to talk to my about the future, how it will go on to not loosing the touch to Roof!
I knew that he really loves his son and that he wants to be a good father for Roof -the opposite of his own one- that Sam tries to care for the cute boy!
We calmed own after that really intensive and unpleasant fight and Sam wanted to go home again.
Before he left the house he would like to see Roof…we went in my room, where our son was sleeping, and watched at him, he was lying in his bed and looked so untroubled an peaceful! I was proud of Sam and me that we chose that difficult but wonderful way to keep the baby,(of course…at the moment we often argue but that is normal in a difficult relationship!!!)
I wished we could stay like that for the next years, observe Roof how he grows up and do not discuss anymore!
I was tired and exhausted; Roof still was sleeping and I wanted to relax in the bath…but suddenly I heard Sam at the door, he wanted to talk to me, I took of my dressing gown (I didn’t know why but it seemed urgent) he was a bit nervous and came inside. I was angry because of his inattention and than he allowed my to go back in the bath as if he wanted to see my necked! I was shocked and didn’t believe that he really said it!
But the worst point was when he told my, he does not want to see my body because he would have much better things to look at!
When I realized what that meant I went off, that was too much! I yelled at him… and when I was so mad at Sam I forbid him to stay in contact with Roof! I thought I would save Roof by not having contact to his dada anymore!
After a while we discussed and fight my mum intervene in the act and tried to calm us town, she made us both a cup of tea and than I noted that there was a bit misunderstanding between Sam and me; he doesn’t want to see my body he quickly wanted to talk to my about the future, how it will go on to not loosing the touch to Roof!
I knew that he really loves his son and that he wants to be a good father for Roof -the opposite of his own one- that Sam tries to care for the cute boy!
We calmed own after that really intensive and unpleasant fight and Sam wanted to go home again.
Before he left the house he would like to see Roof…we went in my room, where our son was sleeping, and watched at him, he was lying in his bed and looked so untroubled an peaceful! I was proud of Sam and me that we chose that difficult but wonderful way to keep the baby,(of course…at the moment we often argue but that is normal in a difficult relationship!!!)
I wished we could stay like that for the next years, observe Roof how he grows up and do not discuss anymore!
Chapter17
Chapter 17:
One day Sam and Roof met his dad in an Italian restaurant and a stayed home and relaxed, thought about our relationship and was frightened because of the row loosing Sam. After a long time they arrived again, all together in Dave’s car, it looked dangerous and I was frightened of my son; the cut boy together with the adventuresome and crazy Dave and together with his dad, who isn’t very careful all the time. When I saw them I get nervous because of Roof….
Everywhere lied Sam’s stuff, that is something which disturbs me, so I talk to Sam and than…we get in quarrelling.
We often had rows and discussed a lot!
In the night Sam was coughing and sneezing, so I couldn’t sleep well and I wanted to save Roof, so I asked him to sleep in an other room but he decided to move to his mum till the cold was over to not infect Roof, on the one hand I was a bit sad but on the other hand I was lucky (at first) to have more freedom and that I do not have to take care for Roof AND Sam!
But when I lied in my bed and wanted to fall asleep I couldn’t… I missed Sam!
One day Sam and Roof met his dad in an Italian restaurant and a stayed home and relaxed, thought about our relationship and was frightened because of the row loosing Sam. After a long time they arrived again, all together in Dave’s car, it looked dangerous and I was frightened of my son; the cut boy together with the adventuresome and crazy Dave and together with his dad, who isn’t very careful all the time. When I saw them I get nervous because of Roof….
Everywhere lied Sam’s stuff, that is something which disturbs me, so I talk to Sam and than…we get in quarrelling.
We often had rows and discussed a lot!
In the night Sam was coughing and sneezing, so I couldn’t sleep well and I wanted to save Roof, so I asked him to sleep in an other room but he decided to move to his mum till the cold was over to not infect Roof, on the one hand I was a bit sad but on the other hand I was lucky (at first) to have more freedom and that I do not have to take care for Roof AND Sam!
But when I lied in my bed and wanted to fall asleep I couldn’t… I missed Sam!
Chapter16
Chapter 16:
Sam and I had to get up every night to feed Roof, change his nappy…every night again! But we couldn’t get used to that ritual, so we felt confused when our son started crying in night, we had to remember where we are and who it is, the crying person!
That night Sam had to get up and calm Rufus down so I could continue to sleep; Sam was proud of himself, because he was better in reassuring our 3- weeks- year old kid than me; I noticed that he liked it. And … Sam also enjoyed the time, when he could be together with our cute boy!
At that moment I felt how much I would love my little family! So I talked to my boyfriend about our love.
I really noticed that we have to stay together, for the rest of the live; I want that the time is available! Everything fits together so well!
Before Roof’s birth I didn’t imagined that the time with him could be as nice as it is now (of course, it is heavy and also stressful, but the most time it is wonderful to see the growing of my own kid: D)
The following day I was alone with Roof because Sam went to college. In the afternoon he came inside very angry, he reproached me that I have had sex with my ex and that roof wasn’t his baby, that he was the looser who care about roof and my although he needn’t, because he isn’t roofs father…
But…why does he think stuff like that? I didn’t realized it at first, I never thought about these nonsense, I was sure that Sam is the father and I was happy about it and it wasn’t possible that there was an other boy…!?!?!!!!
And than…suddenly I knew who talked to Sam and wants to make me in trouble and split Sam and me up! it was my ex! He is at the same college than Sam and he is jealous that I left him because of the difficult topic SEX and now I am a mom! I was sure, my ex likes beating someone up and he is jealous!
But that wasn’t the point… of course… I can understand him a bit, if there came someone to me and wants me to convince of the wrong fatherhood, I would also get uncertain…
The point is that he believes a foreign person and not his girlfriend and his baby’s mom! I was disappointed about his reaction; this is a sign that he does not really loves me and Roof! ...
By the way I was tired, although I didn’t do anything exhausting, so I was tense and Roof nerved me too…
We calmed down and I explained him that it isn’t possible that my ex is Roofs father, after that intensive discussion I went to bed and was a bit frightened because of our future and felt asleep!
Sam and I had to get up every night to feed Roof, change his nappy…every night again! But we couldn’t get used to that ritual, so we felt confused when our son started crying in night, we had to remember where we are and who it is, the crying person!
That night Sam had to get up and calm Rufus down so I could continue to sleep; Sam was proud of himself, because he was better in reassuring our 3- weeks- year old kid than me; I noticed that he liked it. And … Sam also enjoyed the time, when he could be together with our cute boy!
At that moment I felt how much I would love my little family! So I talked to my boyfriend about our love.
I really noticed that we have to stay together, for the rest of the live; I want that the time is available! Everything fits together so well!
Before Roof’s birth I didn’t imagined that the time with him could be as nice as it is now (of course, it is heavy and also stressful, but the most time it is wonderful to see the growing of my own kid: D)
The following day I was alone with Roof because Sam went to college. In the afternoon he came inside very angry, he reproached me that I have had sex with my ex and that roof wasn’t his baby, that he was the looser who care about roof and my although he needn’t, because he isn’t roofs father…
But…why does he think stuff like that? I didn’t realized it at first, I never thought about these nonsense, I was sure that Sam is the father and I was happy about it and it wasn’t possible that there was an other boy…!?!?!!!!
And than…suddenly I knew who talked to Sam and wants to make me in trouble and split Sam and me up! it was my ex! He is at the same college than Sam and he is jealous that I left him because of the difficult topic SEX and now I am a mom! I was sure, my ex likes beating someone up and he is jealous!
But that wasn’t the point… of course… I can understand him a bit, if there came someone to me and wants me to convince of the wrong fatherhood, I would also get uncertain…
The point is that he believes a foreign person and not his girlfriend and his baby’s mom! I was disappointed about his reaction; this is a sign that he does not really loves me and Roof! ...
By the way I was tired, although I didn’t do anything exhausting, so I was tense and Roof nerved me too…
We calmed down and I explained him that it isn’t possible that my ex is Roofs father, after that intensive discussion I went to bed and was a bit frightened because of our future and felt asleep!
Chapter15
Chapter 15:
Finally…Roof is there! I am so happy to have him and to be together with Sam again!
Yesterday it was September the twelfth and our cute son was born! My mum, Sam and me were in hospital a very long time, because my contractions had stopped…
But now…we are family; I am so undesirable happy to be a mother.
Ok, I will start at the beginning of that part in my young live: we went home on September the thirteenth, the day after our son saw the light of the world for the first time. That was my best day since I can think!
I BECAME MUM!
This was the day Sam moved to Roof and me; he came with Annie and Mark and he brought some clothes and a Tony Hawk poster, which he wasn’t allowed to put up in our room. I noticed that he didn’t feel well, of curse he has to live with his newborn kid, his girlfriend and her strong and conservative parents in one house or in the same room, and he had to move from his home and he had to leave his beloved his spontaneous mother…and he must leave his freedom and his careless behaviour!
Everybody stared at me when I was feeding Rufus, but he didn’t like that they watched at him; I asked them leaving the room to calm the cute boy down, but nobody, except for Mark went out so I had to command Annie and mum.
Sam also was ready to leave to room but he shouldn’t because he is the father and I also need him…I love him soooo much…again! Luckily we talked and found a perfect way to educate Roof. … When Sam was on the way to go out of the room I said that he can stay there because of his father- advantage, to live there! But during I told him that, mum watched surprised at me and said that she also live there and that she had the right to stay there...i decided that both, Annie and Andrea, had to go!
When everyone was outside I could relax and enjoy the time with my whole little family! Sam and Roof and me:D
I was tired but unbelievable joyful!!!!
Roof slept in my arm and Sam was happy, too (Ok, I think he was a bit confused because of all these changes!
We are a happy, young, abnormally family!
Finally…Roof is there! I am so happy to have him and to be together with Sam again!
Yesterday it was September the twelfth and our cute son was born! My mum, Sam and me were in hospital a very long time, because my contractions had stopped…
But now…we are family; I am so undesirable happy to be a mother.
Ok, I will start at the beginning of that part in my young live: we went home on September the thirteenth, the day after our son saw the light of the world for the first time. That was my best day since I can think!
I BECAME MUM!
This was the day Sam moved to Roof and me; he came with Annie and Mark and he brought some clothes and a Tony Hawk poster, which he wasn’t allowed to put up in our room. I noticed that he didn’t feel well, of curse he has to live with his newborn kid, his girlfriend and her strong and conservative parents in one house or in the same room, and he had to move from his home and he had to leave his beloved his spontaneous mother…and he must leave his freedom and his careless behaviour!
Everybody stared at me when I was feeding Rufus, but he didn’t like that they watched at him; I asked them leaving the room to calm the cute boy down, but nobody, except for Mark went out so I had to command Annie and mum.
Sam also was ready to leave to room but he shouldn’t because he is the father and I also need him…I love him soooo much…again! Luckily we talked and found a perfect way to educate Roof. … When Sam was on the way to go out of the room I said that he can stay there because of his father- advantage, to live there! But during I told him that, mum watched surprised at me and said that she also live there and that she had the right to stay there...i decided that both, Annie and Andrea, had to go!
When everyone was outside I could relax and enjoy the time with my whole little family! Sam and Roof and me:D
I was tired but unbelievable joyful!!!!
Roof slept in my arm and Sam was happy, too (Ok, I think he was a bit confused because of all these changes!
We are a happy, young, abnormally family!
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