I was tired and exhausted; Roof still was sleeping and I wanted to relax in the bath…but suddenly I heard Sam at the door, he wanted to talk to me, I took of my dressing gown (I didn’t know why but it seemed urgent) he was a bit nervous and came inside. I was angry because of his inattention and than he allowed my to go back in the bath as if he wanted to see my necked! I was shocked and didn’t believe that he really said it!
But the worst point was when he told my, he does not want to see my body because he would have much better things to look at!
When I realized what that meant I went off, that was too much! I yelled at him… and when I was so mad at Sam I forbid him to stay in contact with Roof! I thought I would save Roof by not having contact to his dada anymore!
After a while we discussed and fight my mum intervene in the act and tried to calm us town, she made us both a cup of tea and than I noted that there was a bit misunderstanding between Sam and me; he doesn’t want to see my body he quickly wanted to talk to my about the future, how it will go on to not loosing the touch to Roof!
I knew that he really loves his son and that he wants to be a good father for Roof -the opposite of his own one- that Sam tries to care for the cute boy!
We calmed own after that really intensive and unpleasant fight and Sam wanted to go home again.
Before he left the house he would like to see Roof…we went in my room, where our son was sleeping, and watched at him, he was lying in his bed and looked so untroubled an peaceful! I was proud of Sam and me that we chose that difficult but wonderful way to keep the baby,(of course…at the moment we often argue but that is normal in a difficult relationship!!!)
I wished we could stay like that for the next years, observe Roof how he grows up and do not discuss anymore!
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